Struggling With Depression
“No temptation has overtaken you, except what is common to mankind. And God is faithful; He will not let you be tempted beyond what you can bear. But when you are tempted, He will also provide a way out so that you can endure it” 1 Corinthians 10:13.
I’m a newlywed (at 7 months of marriage) and my husband loves me dearly. We have a beautiful daughter with the biggest brown eyes you’ve ever seen. I swear sometimes that she keeps a little piece of the sun in her soul, because her eyes shine like no other. I have a great job that pays me well, and the people I work with are kind and encouraging. I’ve been making more friends lately, which seems to have always been a hurdle for this introverted girl. My husband and I are welcoming our 2nd child, and first son, in about 4 months. I still can’t believe it’s a boy, but my heart is already overwhelmed for this tiny little man. To top it all off, we’ve been in the process of buying an incredible house, and just found out that we’re finally under contract.
Everything is going great. But I’m struggling with depression.
I’m struggling with feeling sufficient. I feel weak and beaten down, and I can’t kick it. It doesn’t make sense. Everything I said above, in this exact moment, is absolute truth, but still there’s this deep pain in my spirit that I can’t seem to remedy. I’ve struggled with this same nagging sadness ever since I can remember. It comes and goes with no permanence. I guess what makes it so hard is I don’t know why. Sometimes I think if I can just get to the root cause, I can kill the root, and make sure this sadness never comes back, but it seems like every time I try I just get more deeply tangled in the mess I feel hostage to. I just want to be free of it.
Girlfriend, I am telling you this much: Someone is working everyday to take away the joy that God gives you. There are so many days that I am tempted to just be sad, because let’s be honest... it’s easier than fighting a battle that never seems to end.
1 Corinthians 10:13 says, “...He will also provide a way out so that you can endure it.”
That way is solely through spending time sheltered under the stronghold of the only one who can defeat the enemy: Christ Jesus. The Bible always talks about there being a cure, a safe place and a resting grounds, but have you ever noticed that it never says that refuge comes to you? Jesus fought for us, and it is our cross to bear that we fight for Him too. In the moments of sadness, depression and confusion, I will drop everything and pick my feet up to run towards the one who can heal me.
Thank you, Jesus for being faithful to your Word and cleansing to my soul.
WRITTEN BY TARYN LAVEN