Stuck in the Middle



It’s hard to tell a story while you’re still in the middle of it.

I’ve been struggling with financial and career ups and downs that just don’t make sense to me. It’s not something I can look back at in retrospect and see how each event lead somewhere. I’m so ready to say, “Wow, this crazy time has all been worth it and look how much I’ve learned.” But apparently, I still have a lot to learn. I’m nowhere close to solving this puzzle, and not every experience in our lives folds perfectly into a bedtime story of challenges overcome.  

Why would I want to know my life story as if it were over already? It’s not a subway system that’s clearly mapped; it’s a jungle full of the unknown, waiting to be discovered step by step.

My life isn’t a series of instructions- it’s an adventure. I would never want to see a picture of the sunset before I watch it. I wouldn’t be able to appreciate the wonder as each detail unfolds before my eyes.

I’m going to stop looking back, grasping for connection and understanding, and instead start looking forward with excitement and hope.

Dear Lord, help me to let go and enjoy the ride, trusting that it’s much better to live a story than to tell one. You hold everything together, including me.