What Do You Love More Than God?

“Do you love me more than these?” John 21:15

Every morning I sit in the chair at the end of the hallway, waiting for my daughter’s light to go on. Waiting for that light to be a signal that she is okay. She has epilepsy. The morning seizures that were once controlled have now become an unpredictable and unwelcome daily possibility in our home once again.

As Moms (or caregivers in any form) there is nothing we want more than to see the people we love healed, whole, and fully restored. And the longer we go without healing, without movement in a positive direction, without answers to our knee-driven, tear-drenched prayers, the easier it is to become discouraged in our faith.

“Do you love me more than these?” Jesus asked Peter. I have to guard against my desire for my daughter’s healing becoming more important than God’s plan for her. I want His plan to be to heal her now. So far, He has other plans.

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What are your “these” that you love? Family, success, security, your kids, your career, the desire to be loved? What do you put before God? It’s a gut-wrenching, soul-searching question.

Romans 8 says, “That for those who love God all things work together for good, for those who are called according to his purpose.”

God is working for our good and His glory in all circumstances. Perhaps He is allowing these difficult times to change, build, grow those we care about in ways we cannot see to fulfill His purpose for them. He alone knows the plans He has set for them and what He needs to accomplish in their hearts to fulfill them.

God’s word doesn’t promise healing or a long life. He does promise that He is with us, that He is our refuge and our strength, He is our help always. He knows suffering first hand. He walks with us every step. He has a plan. He will meet us every morning. We are held in His mighty hands. 

Father God you are here, you are in control, you are working, you have a purpose in this pain, you see me, you see my loved one, you love us and I know your timing is always best and your love is always perfect. Give me the ability to love you about “these” things that occupy my mind. Amen.

WRITTEN BY WENDY DOUGHERTY