When Your Crush Ghosts You

"If your heart is broken, you'll find God right there; if you're kicked in the gut, he'll help you catch your breath" Psalm 34: 18.

What did I do wrong? Did I say something to scare him away? The questions have been running through my mind over and over again, all day long. I sat there and waited for a text message, a Facebook message, a carrier pigeon, anything! I couldn't stop overthinking and playing through our last conversation in my mind.

This tends to happen whenever I am talking to a guy that I am interested in. Why do we put ourselves through this? I found myself turning towards the negative thoughts that always seem to creep into my mind in these situations: I am so unlovable, unwanted, unworthy. 

Maybe you too have found yourself in a similar situation. I don't have an answer for you. I don't have an answer for myself! All I have is the reminder that God cares about my heartache. Even in silly situations involving my current crush and the lack of communication between us. 

Maker of my heart, thank you for creating feelings. Even when our feelings don't make any sense, even when they hurt. Thank you for healing my heartache time and time again.