Worn Out & Self-Critical
“So, Jeremiah, if you’re worn out in this footrace with men, what makes you think you can race against horses? And if you can’t keep your wits during times of calm, what’s going to happen when troubles break loose like the Jordan in flood?” Jeremiah 12:5.
Summer is officially over! As a high school teacher the beginning of the school year is an absolute whirlwind. Between lesson planning, getting my classroom in order, back to school shopping, and having to get back on a tight schedule that includes waking up before the sun...I found myself overwhelmed- and it was only day three!
I was sitting in my classroom (okay let’s be honest, I was hiding in there), and I found myself crying, contemplating the pace of my life and how, if ever, would I find time to actually slow down. It seemed like my life was being plunged into productive chaos and I couldn’t find my way to the surface of the ocean of tasks I had been drowning in.
My desk was flooded with papers, my mind flooded with thoughts, and my day flooded with to-do lists a mile long. I was skeptical of my ability to accomplish everything ahead and, in the face of my own insecurities, turned to negativity and doubt. I was so critical of my tiredness, critical of my fears, critical of my ability to tackle all the challenges I was facing.
I began to pray that God would give me peace and calm and help me to find ways I could slow down; but then it hit me...instead of figuring out ways to slow down, maybe I needed to pray a new prayer and ask God to increase my capacity and expand my endurance! I began to pray for strength when I felt weak and that God would give me a bigger vision and passion that would carry me through those long days ahead and the storms I would face. I was overwhelmed with the pace I had been running, but the race was one I knew God had called me to and would see me through.
Jesus...on the days I feel worn out and tired, give me the strength to run with horses! Give me peace in the midst of any storm! Increase my capacity to tackle any obstacle. Remind me that even when I am weak, you are strong!
WRITTEN BY CHALESE DUNTON